INFINITUS2010.ORG : 2010-07-23

It has been a really long time since I have updated anything here. I really have not had much inspiration over the past several months and if it were not for being in the cast of the live Harry Potter Wizards Chess Match, I would have probably sunk into a hole of which return would have been impossible.

Some of my dearest friends think of me as a hypocrit because of decisions such as these. I was once so severely against anything "Potter" that I have even made complaining telephone calls to book stores during new Potter book releases. I do however stand by certain convictions especially that the books and the movies are not for young children. If you are a close friend of mine, I must confuse you to no end, but know this, I love all of my friends dearly and would be in a much darker place without all of you, even you Jimi, who I miss the most.

Infinitus2010 was a blast. I really did not know what to expect. I travelled up there with two wonderful women that I have known for almost a year now but knew very little about. I am a social butterfly and so, I prepared my self for the absolute best that could happen, and of course, the best exceeded my expectations. I have made new bonds with people new and old in my life and I must say, I am a better person for it. I am always labelled the quiet one, HA! I am not quite quiet, but more calculated in my responses and careful not to offend which I can do to degrees that are unimaginable. Right Jimi?

Tanya made for me a costume that absolutely rocked. Without that costume I would have been just dan, but with it, like a superhero, it enabled me to step right into character from the first day to the very end of my adventure. I am happy to have found a side of me that I enjoy bringing to the surface and my only regret is that I have no outlet to pursue these desires year round and certainly instead of the daily hum drum work life that I live.

I am glad for the ability to go on these adventures and escapes. As insane as the adventures may seem, they stabilize me and keep me from going absolutely bonkers. More importantly, these excursions keep me from having to hire a steady supply of therapists to deal with my fractured psyche. I formed unbreakable bonds with so many new people and I hope that I keep from doing what I normally do which is to sink back into that isolation behind that well built wall with the gun turrets and defenses keeping all who want in out. I slipped a little more than usuall this time and travelled far from my walls and defenses into a land so unfamiliar that perhaps, just perhaps, I may not be able to find my way back home. Maybe this is a good thing.

Enough of that.

Butterbeer and Hogwarts and costumes and friends. Lucius, Narcissa and Bellatrix Lestrange stormed in and laughed their way through a mix of muggles and magical folk. For 6 whole days, we were invincible. Not even Voldemort could have stopped our recklessness and adventuring. Well, we could not slip past a sleeping Mad-Eye even when we were trying to tip-toe in at near dawn. We drew sanchez moustaches on a sleeping Andromeda. We fought a heck of a chess match. We strutted to and fro across the entire landscape of the convention. We had a wildly successful and unforgetable grad party. We laughed non-stop until our lungs hurt only to repeat the same the following day after day after day. I did not know what to expect going in but surely I was going to make the best of it and that we all did 110%.

So, what is next. I have no idea. The Medieval fair Auditions are right around the corner followed by several months worth of practice. I suppose that is where I will want to be. The pain and suffering in the form of hard work and exercise seems to melt away in favor of spending time with the absolute best people on the planet. I am coming to believe that I do not do this for the adventure. Well, that is only part of the story. I do this because of the people that have entered into my life. I fight and train and practice so that I can keep them close to me and so that I can never let them go. Walls are hard to tear down. The longer they stand the more people that you need to help you to tear them down. I cannot wait!

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		01	2010-08-01	00:59:30	Joey
	Happy to know you're out of your hole.... I know you had a lot of fun, I saw it with my own eyes. I'm going to call you sometime later in the A.M. I have something important to talk to you about.

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